I took this picture last night. I'm 23 weeks. I swear, the camera adds a few (several?) inches! Being pregnant is so weird. There's really no other way to describe it. So far, everything is going pretty well (*knock on wood*). I feel great, aside from some aches and pains and a minor case of absent-mindedness. Based on the size of my stomach and the kung-fu kicks that are going on inside, I'd say baby is also doing well. That doesn't stop me from being nervous though... I'm still so afraid something might happen and ever doctor's appointment and ultrasound comes with a huge amount of tension then a big sigh of relieve when I see and hear that little heart beating. At my last ultrasound appointment, we found out that we will be having a baby girl (pretty sure! she was very squirmy and didn't stay still very long). We have picked out names, and will be naming her after both of our grandmother's.
I'm uncharacteristically relaxed about actually looking after the baby. I don't know if that's me being naive, or the result of some kind of hormonal free for all going on inside of my body. I just feel like I will somehow make it work with, you know, common sense, moderation and patience. I've read some message boards and blog posts about mother's who are disappointed when motherhood doesn't turn out to be exactly how they imagined. The upside of never having imagined myself as a mother is, I wont have to deal with that! I have absolutely no idea what to expect. On the flipside, I have absolutely no idea what to expect... In the wise words of my husband, "Don't worry... it will be FINE!" (Me: "What's that weird noise the car is making?" Dan: "Don't worry... it will be FINE!". Me: "I think you should check on the grilled cheese sandwich you're cooking, it appears to be burning." Dan: "Don't worry... it will be FINE!")
As the due date slowly approaches, I am starting to get a little anxious about the things we need to do to prepare. Like, how the hell do you pick out a stroller? Is the $800 stroller really better than the $200 version? Why does a play pen have to come with so many attachments? Do they even call them play pens any more? Why are there so many cloth diaper options? It's just a poop catcher! (I am making flat diapers.. it it was good enough for me, it's good enough for my baby!) Someone is making a mint off of new parents, that's for sure.
Mostly, I am just thinking about getting the room done right now (ie. the fun part). We spent the last few weekends sorting through boxes in the basement and spare room, and getting rid of furniture and things we no longer needed to make some extra space.
I've had a hard time finding baby room ideas I like. I'm not so into cutesy baby things, but between Etsy and Pinterest I found a general colour scheme and some art and ideas I like. I'm hoping we can get it painted soon, then work on furnishing it...
|Butterfly Art Print by Susannah Tucker , Fabric swatch via Fabricworm, Framed Deer Print by Burrowing Home, Colour Palette via Design Seeds, Cloud Shelf by Shop Littles, Felt Cloud Mobiles by Shop Kiddo, Polka Dot Fabric via Fabricworm|